Where do I even start this?
I am writing this post for two reasons. 1) For posterity. 2) As a reminder to speak honestly, openly and frequently to the people who have influence in and on your life.
I was driving home from work and I checked my Facebook at a red light. I saw the status “Praying for those involved in the tragedy at the Boston Marathon…” I don’t remember at this moment whose status it was. My heart sank. I knew people at the race. I pulled over and scrolled through the other statuses looking for info on what happened. There wasn’t much. Know one really knew what had happened at that point. Only there were two explosions. Chaos.
My first thought was for my friend Dani Homes-Kirk. She probably doesn’t know this, but I have been following her training for this race and her involvement with Teddy’s Team since the beginning. She has been an inspiration to me. An inspiration in weight loss. An inspiration in athleticism. An inspiration in life.
And all of the sudden I had this overwhelming fear that I might not get the chance to tell her that.
I had several other friends at the race. By the time I got to the house and got the news turned on and Facebook, twitter, and Instagram fired up, a good portion of them had checked in to let us know they were alright.
Dani had tweeted that she knew that there was an explosion but then her tweets went silent. A lot of folks were trying to get in touch with her by phone and we were desperately refreshing our browsers waiting for an update saying she was okay. Then this happened…
A flood of emotions overwhelmed me. I am not even 100% sure why I was affected as much as I was other than the fact that I feel this kindred spirit with Dani as a beer drinking, weight losing, record breaking, Dunkin Doughnuts coffee drinker. I think that if and when she reads this, she will be surprised at my concern and emotional stress. But hopefully she will appreciate the words.
I tried reading that status update to my wife so that she would be able to be relived with me and I couldn’t even read it a loud. I almost burst into tears. I had to hand the phone to her and I choked out, “Hear you read this…” She was emotionally moved as well. She knew what a relief it was to me to know that Dani was okay and yet she also understood the magnitude of the status and how close to NOT being okay Dani and family had been. Mere seconds separated them from catastrophe.
Mere seconds and I would not have been able to tell Dani that I was so proud of her.
So Dani, I wanted to take this moment to say a few things. Firstly, thank you for being an inspiration to me. I have enjoyed following your weight loss and fitness journey and I am glad that I will continue to do so. Secondly, I am glad you are okay. I will not get to see you and the rest of the crew at Fitbloggin this year, but I made Alan Ali promise to give you a hug for me and to buy you a beer. Thirdly, you are awesome. I have not ever said it to you before I don’t think. I want you to know that I mean it. I am so proud of you. You are awesome.
In the coming days I am sure that we will find out who committed the senseless action in Boston today and maybe we will even find out why. We will hear of those who were not as fortunate. We will be deluged with news and theories. It will be awful.
In the meantime, hug your loved ones. Tell those who have impacted your life what they mean to you. Share your thoughts and feelings with those who mean something to you. If you wait, the chance could be taken away from you…
Our thoughts and prayers go out to those affected by this senseless tragedy.