Week 72 – Skin to Win

This is the first weigh-in of the rest of my life.

Today: 255.6 lbs.
Last Month: 257 lbs.
Difference: -1.4 lbs.
Total Loss Since Starting this Blog: 79 lbs.

So I am 72 Weeks into this fitness and weight loss journey. Health wise I feel great. Weight wise…I feel ok. Looks wise…I feel gross.

I am having some serious body image issues.

Remember when I posted a while back about the apron?
(seriously go back and read this post…I used to be such a great writer)
Yeah well. That is more of an issue for me than ever before. Even though I have lost over 100 pounds total, I am still dealing with this weird skin flap disorder. It has gotten so much worse as I have lost more weight.

I feel stronger than I ever have, but when I am in the KettleHell class and we are doing sit-ups or mountain climbers or any abs exercise, I am constantly worried about this weird gut that I am carrying. I bulge in weird places. And not bulge in the good way. If there is a good way. Let’s keep this family friendly.

I will spare you actual pictures, as it makes me upset, and therefore I conclude it would make you upset. Let’s just say that my spare tire is smaller than it used to be, but it is still there, and it is flat and saggy.

I know that there are several readers out there in the Blogisphere’overse that have lost massive amounts of weight. How do you deal with this?

I know that skin removal is a thing. But I am NOT ready for that just yet. As you know I still have about 30-35 more pounds that I want to drop. So what do I do in the meantime?

And once I DO lose all the weight, what then? At what point is skin removal surgery an option? Is it vanity that makes me wonder this? Is it possible that all of this extra skin around my middle could actually hinder any progress?

Inquiring minds want to know. If those minds are ever satisfied, I will relay the news. But at this point I think it is something that I just have to deal with.

By the way…this is NOT supposed to be something that discourages people from trying to lose weight. I would SOOOOOO much rather be dealing with THIS than dealing with not fitting in booths and not being able to buy pants at the regular store.  This is just a part of the journey.

Now that you have all of that grossness in your head, allow me to cleanse your pallet… Here is a fun picture that was taken during my Ignite presentation at the FitBloggin conference last week. Enjoy…

6 comments to Week 72 – Skin to Win

  • I used to watch this show “Big Medicine” about a couple weight loss surgeons who routinely had patients dealing with this problem. The issue always seemed to be insurance covering the skin removal. They always found ways to medically justify it. They would say the skin led to rashes or infection under the flap. All kind of reminds me of the scene in “Click” when Adam Sandler wakes up a fat guy but then loses all the weight in a coma resulting in the outrageous belly flap.

  • Sarah
    Twitter: BubblyHeart

    I wish I had introduced myself at FitBloggin’ but you are one of the cool kids and I’m kinda shy.

    Any who… Here’s what I know about extra skin. For me it was all consuming. I know some poeple can get over it and get past it, I was not one of them. Growing up heavy my skin folded over I think in my early teens. Hard to recall, but I always had an apron (pannus is medical term). As I started losing weight it bothered me more at some weights than others. Not sure why that was but I think because of how it hung in it’s various stages on deflation. It was always there. When I leaned over a counter, when I tried on pants. Even the slightest brush up against something and my mind would focus on it. Drove me nuts.

    I would not say that it hindered my progress, I had other medical issues that kept me from being all about the exercise but it did put a damper on my relationship and my body image issues were certainly not helped by all that “extra me” as I liked to call it. When I got to goal my apron hung below my pubic area (sorry if this is TMI) and it fanned out wider than my hips. I waited over 4 years before I had my pannuculectomy and abdomnipalsty aka tummy tuck (tt). These are actually two different procedures. The former covers the skin below the belly button and the latter the skin above the belly button. Many insurances will cover the pannuculectomy but very few cover the tt. If you lose a significant amount of weight though you are going to need both. Some plastic suregons may even suggest a total body lift, but this isn’t about perfection, it’s about functionality and peace of mind. I wish I had done it sooner. I blogged about the process. It was not a smooth one for me, but I’d do it all again…

    My recommendation call up your insurance company and ask what (if anything they cover) if not start saving and shopping around. Nothing I have done for myself has cemented my weight loss more than my plastic surgery. To get back that head space I was giving to that skin was amazing. I don’t know if this makes sense but there were often days where I would just want to eat, to fill it back it out. I hated it. When I had finally had enough and realized I wasn’t going to get passed it I muscled up some courage and talked to my husband about saving for it. Best 8k I’ve ever spent. My insurance covered the lower half because I had lost over 100 pounds and kept it off for a over year.

    This whole self acceptance thing is so hard to do, especially when left a wrinkled deflated body. Wishing you the best of luck and if you’ve got any questions. Feel free to ask. I’m a big advocate of getting this done.

    • hank

      I wish you had said hey. 🙂 I am in NO WAY one of the cool folks. I am just folks. I appreciate the candor. This is a great perspective. [PS – Totally know who you are BTW. You sat near me on the bus back from McCormick!]

  • Bex
    Twitter: bexlife

    I feel your pain in a different way. And without going into details, I’ve been there. It doesn’t make you vain to be able to enjoy the hard work you’ve put in. I’m almost positive that surgery will make you feel better. That’s just my two cents 😉

  • katie cummings
    Twitter: katie_lf

    I know what you’re talking about, my suggestion for now would be to wear some kind of ahorts or undershirt that are form fitting so you know they have you covered.

  • Cory

    I saw an episode of true life I ________(something I don’t recall but basically they didn’t like their bodies or had lost weight or had surgery?) and this one guy had a flap that he essentially binded – ace bandage style. I DO NOT recommend that but I’ve also heard of people post baby wearing belly bands (what are they?) point is – maybe wearing a fitted work out tank under your shirt will help you feel more comfortable in exercise classes and help feel snug – like a bug in a rug. Just a thought 🙂

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